That is how long I have been away. Yes, it was one year ago today that I had a whirlwind of a day, filled with more emotions than a high school theatre production. I have been thinking of this anniversary as it has crept up. It's a strange feeling. I had guesses as to where I'd be now and what I'd be up to, but life has a wonderful way of being full of surprises, and none of my assumptions were right!
I'm not quite sure what to write in this nerd blog non-chapter. I feel as though a year holds significance, but I'm not sure in what ways it can be explained or how I feel about it. I have certainly learned a lot in a year. I have learned about a culture, a language, travelling, love, teaching, being alone. And that last one is important because so much of what I do and have to figure out is by myself. I remember that when I left Quebec, the most important thing I had learned was how to be by myself, and be okay with that. Here in France, I experienced that again - starting anew, making friends, feeling far from the familiar.
Some things don't get easier with time. I still get homesick and miss people and am sad when correspondence dwindles. I've made France my home, but it isn't where I'm from and I won't stay here, so people forgetting is very hard. But I have gotten used to being far from what's most important, and being comfortable with that distance. I have gotten used to it to the point that I could live away for many more years, and I finally understand how my parents were able to live away from Canada for so long. It just becomes normal.
Through the lonelier moments and seemingly impossible predicaments, I never had regrets about coming. I have seen some incredible things and met people who have changed my life and how I see the world.
The highlights that stand out were the visitors who came from Canada, Cynthia and Merrill in Rennes, Raffi and Viktor in Paris, and the steadfast Doctor who has been a rock through it all.
So here's to a year, and a promise to return before the next anniversary!
With love,
Hincks.
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2 comments:
Here's to a year indeed. Wow. 365 days since waving goodbye to Valentina?
This was a thoughtful post. I hope everyone reads it - especially those who who can't fit blog reading into their busy schedules. It's funny how little milestones like this make us more reflective. I too have grown comfortable with distance and the time alone, but a lot of what I've learned here probably won't become apparent until years in the future. Fodder for another balcony chat.
Thanks for always being there while being here ;)
Doc
These experiences will be with you for all times. My hat goes off to you-You are living a dream, most are too scared to even imagine,let alone jump into as you have. Congrads ,and thanks so much for sharing. I love your blogs. Heres to your upcoming -Horse Adventure-in Beautiful Portugal.
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